We are not out of woods yet.

A poem by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe;

The Wanderer's Night Song II
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THOU who comest from on high,
Who all woes and sorrows stillest,
Who, for twofold misery,

Hearts with twofold balsam fillest,
Would this constant strife would cease!

What are pain and rapture now?
Blissful Peace,

To my bosom hasten thou!

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We all have that strong desire to seek peace for our mind and to be release from the constant emotional battles of life. 

We seek god when the world is against us and ask god to take all the pain away instantly so that we won't be feeling those feelings anymore.

I too, often find myself in that position where I want to move on without dealing with my pain, only to realize later that it doesn’t go away, it just builds up.

So, whatever pain you are feeling right now, let them.

Let it hurt.

You will get through it and over time when you find yourself in the same situation, it will hurt less.

It won't consume you like it did the first time.

The poem teaches us that life's a struggle sometimes. But, we are the one who can control ourselves and find inner peace within it. 

Just because it is heavy does not mean it is impossible to carry.

The kindest thing you can do for yourself is to let go things that no longer serve you.

Stop expecting people to choose you and begging them to stay.

They know what they are doing.

They know exactly what makes you hurt.

Yet, they still did it.

You giving them chances won't make them sorry for it and making them change their behaviour.

It will just giving them the opportunity to hurt you more next time.

The poem reflects that peace is more important than chasing perfection and dwelling in pain.

The next time you were getting bitten by a snake, help yourself recover from the poison instead of chasing the snake and try to find out why. 

Again, they know exactly what they are doing.

You aren't in control of those things but your own reactions and actions.

And again, stop expecting people to come to you; instead, find yourself and move on.

You should be focusing on the healing process.

One day, one fine day, you will thank yourself for making this huge decision of letting go.

Peace is realising you can leave them behind and never turning back.

Tell yourself that this isn’t the life you want to live in.

This isn’t the love you deserve.

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Thank you for not begging,

Thank you for setting me free, 

Thank you for respecting my decision. 

I am no longer have the capacity to even write back to you. 

Sometimes love means loving from a distance.

I still can support you without being with you. 

“When one is fire the other should be the water” 

Semoga tuhan jaga engkau, di mana jua kau berada.

Tiada benci mahupun dendam itu jauh sekali,

Aku hanya mahukan hidup yang lebih tenang,

Tanpa engkau di sisi.

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But we always come back for each other?

“Love yourself enough to know when enough is enough”

Not this time.


With best wishes as we part ways,

D.

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