Life update.

Cheesy story coming your way.....

Changing the speed to 2x,

On 2019, I had a crush on him, I made a wild move by confessing my feelings to him and not expecting anything in return. 2 years later, he confessed back his feelings on a random evening while I was in Kedah enjoying life and didn’t look forward to getting into a relationship again pun.

I just got out of a 5 years relationship when he approached and no, I didn't expect that this guy I confessed my feelings to would be my husband today but here we are. 

It's beautiful how I remember the first time we met, he was in denim jacket he just bought the night before and I wore a blazer I bought a week ago tryna impress each other for first impressions and somehow we nailed it. Then, there was a second date and another date, dates after dates, dating and dated, date and dates, 6 months passed. 

I told him I didn't wanna get married, I was ego, I was firm with my decisions.

"We can date but I never wanted to marry anyone including you" I told him again.

He was calm, tryna accept his fate.

"Okay, but why?" he asked demanding for answers.

"I just don't see myself as a wife, I could never, and I wanna build my career" I answered firmly.

He made that I-had-no-choice-but-to-accept face and we move on with our lives.

2 years of dating, I started to feel like this could go somewhere, and I asked him, when he's going to propose the idea of getting married? Taknak kahwin ke? 

I contradicted myself or maybe I grew out of it.

Slowly making my own words against me. 

"Tapi bukan you taknak kahwin ke?" He asked nonchalantly.

"So memang taknak kahwin la???" I gasped.

"Nak la!" he shouted desperately.

"Ok nak 15k for mas kahwin" I demanded.

He collapsed.

After he was okay, I asked him again about it.

He said, he will try, but deep down, I was never going to put a price on hantaran or mas kahwin pun, I just wanna see him go above and beyond for the said money, is he willing to do anything to kumpul duit or banyak bazirkan duit macam nak hidup single selamanya?

He made his choice and on,

1 November 2025, 8 am,

We were getting ready!

Ya Allah nervous sikit....

Actually I didn't feel nervous at all, just tired, needed to baring and sleep for 80 hours.

Hanya tuhan yang tahu behind the scene of  how we were late to the venue. Your bride forgot where she put deposit receipt but nasib baik ain jumpa!

Thanks ain and put for saving our lives.

11:10 am,

Enchanted by Joseph William Morgan was played,

We spent ages finding the right walking down the aisle song so that we both could fit in the same song and alhamdulilah, 

There he was in white baju melayu stood with mama ready to walk down the aisle. We shared a glance, he waved at me, I smiled through my long veil waited for my turn.

I thought to myself, ya Allah is this happening? I'm getting married just in a few minutes. No turning back, no second thoughts, nothing, just a wired mind and the urge to get it done with.

He was walking, smiling confidently.

"Alamakk laju nya member ni jalan" I whispered.

The deal was to let him walk for about a minute and a half so I could continue and finish my walk in sync with the song but things happens.

My turn, those spotlight making me uncomfortably wanted to vomit, ok you had one job, jalan je.

Ayah was nervous he walked too fast that I had to remind him few times to walk slower. 

"Ayah jalan slow lagi, slow sikit" I reminded ayah.

However, we still made it on time, lagu habis on time, alhamdulilah.

Ibu came to rescue and helped me with those stairs, fuh.

Now what?

I just have to sit still pretty?

Only a few minutes up there and listening to khutbah, my left leg started to menggigil and I tried my best to stop it, macam mana ni?!

"Tarik nafas, hembus, tarik nafas dalam-dalam pastu hembus" Ibu tried to calm me down.

I needed that and somehow it slows down the nerve and calmed me down. 

Alhamdulilah shaking on leg was gone....but now my hands pulak were shaking!

My hands were shaking like crazy and my mom kept saying tarik nafas, baca doa, tarik nafas and baca doa but it just wont do.

After few minutes of struggling that on stage, we somehow managed to stop the shaking.

Fuh~

Baru duduk 10 minutes dah macam-macam jadi ni.

The khutbah kahwin felt so long and I started to feel boring but I had to maintain my posture kalau tidak I akan nampak bongkok in every picture, so I had to maintain posture tegak and mind you my dress was very tight dekat perut I cannot move an inch or else something will koyak and we definitely didn't want that.

During on stage, my eyes wandered.

I saw aiman's friends, I saw my friend's table were full, no empty seats, I saw my families, extended families, unfamiliar faces and,

My eyes were locked to one direction.

The moment came, akad in progress.

2 hands were in position,

Ya Allah....

Still couldn't believe it until today,

Alhamdulilah, 

Dengan sekali lafaz,

I'm finally someone's wife.

Even better, 

Aiman's wife.

My mom were whispering things to me but I was busy crying and maintaining my makeup, and it was hard ya I tell you, to cry and to maintain but I managed!

Thanks so much to putri, she was the one who gave me the tissue (it was lipat and to be hidden under my zip tangan) so that I could cry the bride-way.

Ahhh???? Me, a wifey, after 3 years.

Those feelings were beautiful, indah sangat-sangat the moment you knew, you're finally someone's wife and will get to live with the love of your life.

Penat dah habis, no more back to back from kl to klang, kl to kajang for baju fittings, searching for bunga, searching for tudung kahwin, searching for kasut, fitting for suits, searching for his seluar (yang ni ambil masa 40 tahun for real, dia punya susah nak cari seluar tu ya Allah, thanks for listening, dah lama pendam), finally worth it. 

Our intimate, exclusive and fun wedding came to life, I couldn't ask for more.

It was only 300 paxs of families and friends, my own wedding sign from a brand I always wanted, my own customed-veil that made specifically for me, my long beaded dress altered to perfection, our exclusive guest names, table numbers, gifts for families, our initials cards, our fav fav wedding playlist that we made to last 4 hours, my husband's suits that we spent days trying on, both of my makeup artists, my gorgeous keepsakes and soooo many more little things.

All was perfectly planned just the way I wanted it, everything was smooth and according to its place, timing and vibes, I wish my photographers captures these small things. Captures my families and friends who came but we didn't get to greet, captures all those moments at main entrance and overall moments yang I tak expect akan ada.

Our event was meant to be 4 hours and I memang dreaming of having nikah only, no sanding or bertandang. But, the down side was we didn't get to meet and greet everyone who came, atleast for me la because I was busy with my second makeup for outdoor photoshoot. Thank you so much to those who came, especially our friends yang daripada jauh, also Aiman's friends who greeted me and yang I salam, it was nice meeting these people ya Allah everyone was so nice to doakan us and I was so happy to kenal partner everyone, sebab lepas tu I had disappear and Aiman had to take over alone hehe.

Every each person that was invited during nikah was invited after a very thorough discussion and lots of hadap laptop and susun all the seating charts and gaduh sikit and terpekik terlolong ni nak letak mana ni nak duduk dengan siapa ni gaduh tak ni adik beradik ke apa? Especially our friend's table, we chose each of you with love because you represents a very special place in our hearts. That was why we wanted each table to witness our nikah, so that we could remember those beautiful moments together. Paling lama to discuss was Aiman's part, berapa ramai kawan2 dia akan letak for nikah and we ended up with the lists and during on stage, I saw everyone who came which what I was thankful for, walaupun ada yang tak dapat datang due to salah faham from our part, tapi nasib baik sempat jumpa to clarify hehe.

Also, the process of choosing groomsmen and maid of honours for us was easy, it was our own friends who we kenal dah lama and willing to be there during the event. I picked black for groomsmen baju melayu and we came to an agreement between my girls to wear soft pink, black because that's our favourite colour and soft pink because I knew both my girlfriends will look stunning in soft pink and they bought the same baju from the same store which was fun to watch and surprisingly memang complement the whole vibe of the wedding. I loved it so much, tak sangka diorang pakai baju sama, because I thought they only bought the baju at the same store je rupanya memang baju design yang sama, this was my favourite part bila teringat sebab diorang nampak macam kembar and so beautiful <3

Both our groomsmen and maid of honors looked so handsome and gorgeously beautiful on that day, I suka!!! 

Whenever I think of it, banyak benda yang dipermudahkan sebab during the event I tak ada rasa resah even when things didn't go our way.

We did post-mortem and analyze things that happened during the event and found out so many things yang didn't go as plan but we as pengantin, tak kena tempias tu sebab both family sides and friends were so helpful and so smart in handling everything. 

Alhamdulilah, Allah betul-betul kenankan doa supaya segalanya dipermudahkan.

Apart from all that, I masih bersyukur that things happened the way it happened, I wouldn't want it any other way, my wedding day was everything to me, to us and both my families. It was perfect, fun and paling penting, very indah.

Thank you, my husband, for saying yes to everything that I had plan and for working 2 shifts just so that we could pay for my dream wedding, imean...our dream wedding.

and,

Thank you sayang, 

Thank you for keeping your promises.

Semoga aku kau jaga dan pelihara,

Semoga perkahwinan ini disatukan dengan penuh Sakinah, Ma-waddah, Wa-rahmah,

Semoga setiap hari kita bersama, 

Bersama selamanya hingga ke Jannah.

In shaa Allah, aamin.

.

My heart rests with you, sayang.

Walaupun kau hanya pinjaman daripada tuhan,

Tapi kau lah pinjaman yang paling berharga.

Love,

D. (Aiman's wife)