How I got my smile back.

Please get ready for a cheesy and cringy love story.

First off all, you are still the most annoying person I have ever met and those begedel we had the past 2 nights really slaps so thank you very much, you're the best. 

Let's go back to a year ago.

Recap: You were too introverted to confess, I noticed the thread, we were in a situationship, heart-to-heart, astu boom!

"F the paperwork" said Mr Grey to Anastasia Steele and proceeds to push her to the wall and kissed her out of her soul.
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Well, this was the vibe I was getting when I finally gave up our initial benchmark. I didn't want to wait until 6 months to finally date you because I thought why not just getting to know you while dating you and so I did. That, I tell you, the best decision I've made last year. 

Fast forward to 6 months of having to baby this land crocodile (cos he had 50 exes), I knew for a fact, I had found the one. 

"Nak makan ikea"
"Okay boleh"
"Jom gepuk esok"
"Okay jom"
"Jom pergi cafe aesthetic tu"
"Okay jom cari date dulu"
"Boleh ke tak pergi gym harini"
"Okay boleh"
"Boleh ke tolong dobi baju I"
"Boleh"
"Tolong hantar pergi TBS"
"Okay boleh"

All these never failed to put a smile on my face. Finally sis, I got someone who I could rely on and do everything together with. And, who knew someone I fell for first, fell harder for me.

Bak kata Pak Jamal, jodoh takkan kemana. (yeke)

Ok hold on, I wanna rewind back to the moment where I knew that I liked him. Duh

It was like 66 million years ago.....

The time when the mysteries of the world were yet to be unearthed and dinosaurs was unknown to humanity.........

On a windy evening I thought it was a good idea to tell him that I had feelings for him. However,  he rejected me saying he had a girlfriend at that moment and I was like ok cool whatever bye forever, I guess? 

Do you know what happened 2 years after that conversation? Yes, he made a comeback. This time around, asking "Is it possible to have a relationship with you?" holy cow mr desperado I didn't finish degree yet geez. Calm your titis man. 

Since then, the love was blooming and it still is. 3 red roses, huh?
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"Love is a journey" he reminded me. 

Indeed, how true that feels with you by my side. I wouldn't exchange anything in this world for the moments we shared and every day with you is a priceless thing that I hope I could cherish forever.

I don't know how to describe these feelings but the love I have for you is something I have never felt before. I constantly finding myself trying to find answers but I just couldn't. It’s like we’ve known each other for years. Your kindness, genuine supports, and the love you've showered upon me make me feel brighter that I no longer need sunlight in my life. For real.

.....jk.

You are the most compassionate soul who always offers me comforting words to make me feel better when I was feeling down. You went above and beyond just to ensure I was getting the treatment I deserved. I loved how you have been so gentle with your words and that you were trying so hard to change to be a better person for me. 

Oh, hanya tuhan yang tahu perasaan bahagia itu. Tak dapat diungkapkan dengan kata-kata getaran yang terasa di dalam dada ku ini. 

Perasaan ini bagai mekar di kebun bunga hatiku. 

Enough with that, let's rate you, shall we?

Handsomeness: Very
Romantic: Kinda
Understanding: Well, okay
Kindness: Infinity
Loyal: You better
Caring: I don't need to lift a finger
Besar kepala: Sedikit 
Annoyingness: Do I need to tell anymore?
Degil: Boleh tahan gak

Kidding, but not really. Geez.

On a serious note, keep being you, my favourite person. 

Thank you for always being there. You never failed to brighten up my days with your warm and infectious laughter. Oh, did I ever tell you that your laugh makes me laugh too? It's just so fun hearing those laughter sometimes. Frfr no cap. You light up my world and never failed to make me feel loved and appreciated. In moments of uncertainty, you never failed to provide strength and reassurance for me which I truly, sincerely, always thankful for. To be honest, you deserves more than a write up. You deserves everything good in this world regardless the situations. 

Even though we don’t know what the future holds, I hope it brings out the best in us. 

And…

That was how I got my smile back. Thank you, again, you recognize that even the most fractured soul deserves love. 


Love,
D.

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