2024.

Tahun yang mencabar tetapi mengajar. 

Tahun yang banyak sangat memories tercipta sampaikan aku tak mampu recall satu persatu.

Manis dan pahit, dua dua aku hadap dengan being cool, calm and collected. 

Ceh.

Now playing, That's so true by Gracie Abrams. My fav and maybe will be my top songs next year.

P/S; take everything you read with a pinch of salt.

So here's a thing,

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Rezeki, 

Mencurah-curah alhamdulilah, walaupun sikit tapi terasa cukup, walaupun susah tetapi dipermudahkan dan walaupun impossible tetapi didekatkan. 

I will always find a way to be thankful for what I have even the smallest things. 

Maybe that's another way to be murah rezeki.

In terms of doa, aku selalu titipkan, 

"ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha pemurah lagi maha pengasih, kurniakanlah aku rezeki yang halal, rezeki yang berkat, rezeki yang melimpah ruah, rezeki yang tak disangka-sangka, rezeki yang membolehkan aku senang beribadah kepadamu dan rezeki yang boleh membawa aku ke syurgamu" 

Aku aminkan sambil akhiri doa dengan,

"Sesungguhnya, kaulah tuhan yang maha kuasa, maha mendengar dan maha mengetahui sesuatu"

Dalam berdoa atau sujud terakhir.

Somehow, this doa changed my life 360.

Tapi tambah dengan bersyukur setiap hari walau sekecil perkara, your life gets even better.

Satu benda yang aku pegang selamanya,

Rezeki datang dalam pelbagai bentuk dan tepat pada masanya.

Rasakan rezeki itu macam ujian untuk kau teruskan hidup, in fact rezeki itu adalah ujian. 

Kau kaya? rezeki, tak bermakna kau mulia.

Kau miskin? rezeki, tak bermakna kau hina.

Rezeki itu luas, so be specific in your doa along with usaha then tawakkal.

Sama juga dengan rezeki dalam any hubungan,

Instead of berdoa, 

Semoga hubungan ini kekal sehingga jannah, aku titipkan, semoga hubungan ini memberi seribu satu kebaikan kepada kita semua. 

Kerana, yang kekal itu tak semestinya memberi kebaikan dalam sesebuah hubungan (either friendship or love relationship).

2024, tahun di mana aku jejak kaki di Seoul, Korea.

Aku masih tak mampu habiskan series blog korea tetapi will finish it if I have the time! for the purpose of memories.

Satu benda yang aku gagal/lupa untuk buat was journaling. Throughout the whole journey I didn't journal a single thing then a year after baru aku rasa nak buat lepastu terasa menyesal. Stamps was a lot, postcards were everywhere and none of these was done/bought! 

I spend all of my internship allowance for this trip and it was the best decisions ever. No sponsors, no FAMA, but my blood, sweat and tears to see myself stepping foot in korea with my friends. 

Kalau kau ada duit untuk travel, pergilah walaupun hanya mampu negara jiran je.

I spent 4k for korea trip and that was the price I paid for the unforgettable experiences I had.

Masa boleh cari apatah lagi duit and vice versa.

The best thing you can give yourself is the experience you'll gain from traveling around the world.

But make sure to document everything cos those things will be told to your grandkids. 

"Nenek pernah pergi Korea carik oppa, tapi yang dapat atok ko je" - Me, 2075.

Whatever it is, do allocate few % of your gaji to go see the world. 

See what it has to offer and maybe you will get to learn something.

"The world is a book, and those who do not travel, read only one page", Saint Augustine.

2024, beast mood activated.

The year where I took my running hobby to another level.

Signed up for various running event with my partner and slowly adapting to my desired running pattern. 

You will need 1 hobby to stay fit and to feel energetic so I chose running no matter what.

You're sad? run.

You feeling lonely? run.

You feeling stressed? run. 

Run could possibly solve most of your problems and maybe escape your bad habits.

Atleast, for me.

If you could run 5k in one session then it is not impossible you could do 10k.

If you could do 10k then it is not impossible it could heal your heartbroken.

Eh

2024, I no longer see the bad in people.

That year taught me that no matter what kind of good people you are planning to be, be the good ones that shows kindness even when it is not expected. 

Not necessarily being a pathological people-pleaser.

Just having more compassion for others.

No matter what bad things someone did to you, acknowledge it and find a way to forgive them.

When someone do bad things to you it says a lot about them than about you. 

Maybe they were insecure, their mindset plays a major roles too and their own issues.

Has nothing to do about you.

One thing for sure, you can't control these people, you can't control their behaviour and surely firmly obviously you can't control their way of thinking.

Me myself were not a good person to everyone. 

But I know when to show kindness. 

"You have enemies? Good. That means you’ve stood up for something, sometime in your life" - Winston Churchill

We ourselves might be toxic to others and its okay to accept the situation as it is and strive to be better.

Sebab experiences especially challenging ones shape people's maturity.

Kalau kau lambat go through emotional turmoil, kau akan lambat tough.

The lambat it happen the more you will be left spineless in the tomb of silence. 

Sounds dramatic but imagine having your first heartbreak in the midst of adulting.

Not recommended. 

Hence, these experiences will shape you into a better human than yesterday and will prepare you for a heartbreak massacre and level up your emotional intelligence. 

Also,

Having a mindset esok mati jugak, I always find a way to forgive people and seek for forgiveness. Avoid drama and not interfering others drama. 

Why? esok mati jugak. Harsh but ok la, it elevated my life.

I stopped stressing over things I can't control and start living my best life.

Life's too short to live for others.

No drama could make the world a better place kot. So I try to stay away from one.

Apart from all of these, I think I overlooked the importance of connections. 

More connections = More opportunities

For the last 7 years I have been reluctant to make new connections with people and somehow I lost the opportunities to be exposed to different perspectives and new ideas. 

Having more connections could offer you tenfolds of benefits but I didn't commit to be open instead I stayed in my own world and expect people to talk to me. 

Maybe because I was too comfortable in my own circle that I don't feel the need to get out of that bubble.

So don't be like me?

2024, making another big decisions for myself.

Allah's plan is the best, no matter how hard I try to plan things the way I want them to be, the better ones will menyusul. 

However, tak bermakna you shouldn't plan things ahead.

Failed to plan = Planning to fail

Every decision I made last year always came with a structured and timeline-based plan.

Sometimes the plan backfired on me, but I know there are even bigger plans ahead (Allah's plan).

Bila fikir balik, ada hikmah benda tu tak berlaku dan ada hikmah disebalik benda yang berlaku.

Stressing over a failed plan should be the last thing you wanna do. Heads up, plan more and move forward, mungkin ada yang lebih baik.

That's what I always tell myself, atleast. 

2024, dah dewasa, dah siap boleh planning hari bahagia dah ni!

and I did. 

Semoga dipermudahkan, In shaa Allah.

2025 resolutions;

To saving more and to still, avoid any dramas.

Buhbye,

D.